"Be pacient with me I have a lot in my head sometimes"--Mom
My mom came to visit me today. It takes a lot of pacience sometimes to deal with her. I don't know what the heck it is but sometimes it's just hard you know? My mom has gone back to the faith she's going back to mass and taking her with him. she urged me to do the same. I told her I wasn't in the right frame of mind to deal with that right now. I don't even have the patience to make an appointment at the hospital to get the glass in my arm removed. We saw a Shark's Tale today the movie sucked but I liked being with my mom....she cried when she left. She worries me a lot I think she blames herself for things she doesn't need to. I don't think she knows how much I've been throgh and delt with on my own....oh well I love her anyway. She's still my mom and she does the best she can you know? I really can't complain.
Moving on:
"I'm glad to see that you're back to updating. I guess you've been doing it for a little while, but I just haven't been very active in the blogging community this last week.I'd like to personally say that I'm glad that you're doing well, especially after your wreck (rather than you just having heard so from Quita!).(I'm suprised you haven't read "Night" before now! It's so good!) It's interesting how faith works, I suppose. It's good to believe in something... you wouldn't believe how it makes even the tiniest differences, you know?Anyway, better stop before I ramble on and on."
--The Every Stylish Peter
I found this here the other day. I found it the mornign after I blogged. It kinda stuck with me the whole day like a peace of fabric sofener to my towel-or how tolliet paper sticks to the button of that one girl's shoe just after she leaves the bathroom(not trying to insult Peter just trying to lighten the mood for what is about to come). I wondered on and on about the changes that have been going on between all of us the last few weeks. Jon and Junior are taking and I've started talking to Rachel (not that Rachel is bad it's just I've never really talked to her before...tis odd) and she's even welcomed me into her home. I think its high time we all got back together. I can take responsibility that most (but not all) of the lost trackness is my fault. Most of that is seer laziness. I will cop to that. Others were a we bit insighted...and others still were just over reactions. In any case I apologize for being so stuborn and strong-willed. It's a personality trait that can be positive at times and at other I just hang myself with it like the heart from the tree on the cover of the new Used CD (Jonnell get that ^_^)*Note: for those of you that do not know the Used they sound a wee bit like AFI...but I prefer the Used...not sure why....maybe it's because AFI was a little forced upon me in Bradwell X_X
"'A crack forms in the foundation fault line through your defenses Illuminating the essence Once clouded by a myth'"
--The Unconquerable Jonnell
Aww my angel in the darkness speaks...I truely believe that if I were a man...or gay Jonnell, Quita, Jette, and Cali would all be part of my harem ^_^ but maybe Jonnell would rule them all...I don't know Quita might put up a good fight there. Anyway she made this request so I am here to deliever. The first part "A crack forms in the foundation fault line through your defenses' I think that can pretty easil be seen as learning to trust again after heartache or simply just letting someone close to you again. "Illuminating the essence Once clouded by a myth" ....Kim translation--Revealing the true you that was once hidden by your front. Its and interesting line ^_^ what's it from My lovely Jonnell. ::huggle the Jonnell:: I miss Jonnell a lot...Jonnell would be Quita....but to the darkest part of the spectrum....and some how they both make me laugh and feel happy....so Jonnell have you purchased the new Used CD.
Quita is rushing me....I'll just take longer
It's SEMI official now! I will be making a special guest Appearance in Columbus the long weekend. Quita will be running of with Cinnamon roll Saturday night so if Certain people (HINT HINT JUNIOR) would like to see me they may want to get on the ball with that ^_^ hehe I have no car, according to news updates Jon's car is dead, Game's mama is...well Game's mama and Rachel's parents have pilfered her ride and she has no liscense anyway............and the Sentra is resting in peace now. * Note to Audience: My mom told me what they did with the Nissan afterwards....I need to cry about it but I can't...yeah that painful....the Nissan deserved better--I'm bitter about the car more than the scars on my arm.* So I'm kinda...stationary.
On the note of my scars. I've been paranoid about them since I've had a grand total of about 10(One of which is my 40 year old boss who is THE ANTI-CHRIST'S WHORE) people tell me it was nasty or to cover it up. but I guess I have nothing to worry about because Quita seems to find men staring at me wherever I go so I guess I'm fine.... I don't know still paranoid....might wear hoodie the entire time in Columbus.
Um...I think I'm done now...I'm not sure I'm trying to kill time here because Ali is being a bitch and making Quita and I wait....my shoulder hurts...QUITA......massage me? I need a bath....not like I smell need a bath...more like bath vs. shower....okay.......I'm done for real now ^_^
My mom came to visit me today. It takes a lot of pacience sometimes to deal with her. I don't know what the heck it is but sometimes it's just hard you know? My mom has gone back to the faith she's going back to mass and taking her with him. she urged me to do the same. I told her I wasn't in the right frame of mind to deal with that right now. I don't even have the patience to make an appointment at the hospital to get the glass in my arm removed. We saw a Shark's Tale today the movie sucked but I liked being with my mom....she cried when she left. She worries me a lot I think she blames herself for things she doesn't need to. I don't think she knows how much I've been throgh and delt with on my own....oh well I love her anyway. She's still my mom and she does the best she can you know? I really can't complain.
Moving on:
"I'm glad to see that you're back to updating. I guess you've been doing it for a little while, but I just haven't been very active in the blogging community this last week.I'd like to personally say that I'm glad that you're doing well, especially after your wreck (rather than you just having heard so from Quita!).(I'm suprised you haven't read "Night" before now! It's so good!) It's interesting how faith works, I suppose. It's good to believe in something... you wouldn't believe how it makes even the tiniest differences, you know?Anyway, better stop before I ramble on and on."
--The Every Stylish Peter
I found this here the other day. I found it the mornign after I blogged. It kinda stuck with me the whole day like a peace of fabric sofener to my towel-or how tolliet paper sticks to the button of that one girl's shoe just after she leaves the bathroom(not trying to insult Peter just trying to lighten the mood for what is about to come). I wondered on and on about the changes that have been going on between all of us the last few weeks. Jon and Junior are taking and I've started talking to Rachel (not that Rachel is bad it's just I've never really talked to her before...tis odd) and she's even welcomed me into her home. I think its high time we all got back together. I can take responsibility that most (but not all) of the lost trackness is my fault. Most of that is seer laziness. I will cop to that. Others were a we bit insighted...and others still were just over reactions. In any case I apologize for being so stuborn and strong-willed. It's a personality trait that can be positive at times and at other I just hang myself with it like the heart from the tree on the cover of the new Used CD (Jonnell get that ^_^)*Note: for those of you that do not know the Used they sound a wee bit like AFI...but I prefer the Used...not sure why....maybe it's because AFI was a little forced upon me in Bradwell X_X
"'A crack forms in the foundation fault line through your defenses Illuminating the essence Once clouded by a myth'"
--The Unconquerable Jonnell
Aww my angel in the darkness speaks...I truely believe that if I were a man...or gay Jonnell, Quita, Jette, and Cali would all be part of my harem ^_^ but maybe Jonnell would rule them all...I don't know Quita might put up a good fight there. Anyway she made this request so I am here to deliever. The first part "A crack forms in the foundation fault line through your defenses' I think that can pretty easil be seen as learning to trust again after heartache or simply just letting someone close to you again. "Illuminating the essence Once clouded by a myth" ....Kim translation--Revealing the true you that was once hidden by your front. Its and interesting line ^_^ what's it from My lovely Jonnell. ::huggle the Jonnell:: I miss Jonnell a lot...Jonnell would be Quita....but to the darkest part of the spectrum....and some how they both make me laugh and feel happy....so Jonnell have you purchased the new Used CD.
Quita is rushing me....I'll just take longer
It's SEMI official now! I will be making a special guest Appearance in Columbus the long weekend. Quita will be running of with Cinnamon roll Saturday night so if Certain people (HINT HINT JUNIOR) would like to see me they may want to get on the ball with that ^_^ hehe I have no car, according to news updates Jon's car is dead, Game's mama is...well Game's mama and Rachel's parents have pilfered her ride and she has no liscense anyway............and the Sentra is resting in peace now. * Note to Audience: My mom told me what they did with the Nissan afterwards....I need to cry about it but I can't...yeah that painful....the Nissan deserved better--I'm bitter about the car more than the scars on my arm.* So I'm kinda...stationary.
On the note of my scars. I've been paranoid about them since I've had a grand total of about 10(One of which is my 40 year old boss who is THE ANTI-CHRIST'S WHORE) people tell me it was nasty or to cover it up. but I guess I have nothing to worry about because Quita seems to find men staring at me wherever I go so I guess I'm fine.... I don't know still paranoid....might wear hoodie the entire time in Columbus.
Um...I think I'm done now...I'm not sure I'm trying to kill time here because Ali is being a bitch and making Quita and I wait....my shoulder hurts...QUITA......massage me? I need a bath....not like I smell need a bath...more like bath vs. shower....okay.......I'm done for real now ^_^
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Hi there my dear Mama Bear...well I kinda got the net set onto my new now classfied shitty ass computer...and to answer your question that quote was from a song called "The light that Blinds" by the band Shadows Fall...(*sniff,sniff*)I WANT THE NEW USED CD but sadly...walmarts corporate cult has edited my Bert's lyrics!!!THOSE BASTARDS!!!!! so I would much rather hear him cursing and screaming so I have chosen to wait until I can find a ride to the PX(*sniff,sniff*)this waiting truly does tear at me(*sniff,sniff*)(*hehe read my journal*)anyhow...alot of learning going on with me right now...here's another quote:
(*ok screw it I'll write the song*)
"Eternity is Within"
Man has programmed himself to die
A death wish has been ingrained
Almost with our first breath
We are taught to expect our last
Science has done its best to choke off
The true instincts of mankind
Death is impaitent and thoughtless
Morality is a disease of the mind
Embrace the gifts before you
Paradise is underfoot
Eternity is within
Lost site of the bounty before us
Boundless resource of pleasure and plenty
Living for an intangible
In a future clouded with doubt
One step forward is one step
deeper into the grave
Breathe...breath of life...
and heres a quote:
"I never looked this far away
Never saw what lies ahead
In the midst of false comfort
The scars were hidden but never healed"
::blinks:: The Used... ... ... ::shudder:: ... I'm not sure hwo AFI-ish they are (Possibly in that they have a even mixture of screaming/singing in alot of their songs?), but I think AFI rocks waaay more, hahah.
People up here keep playing the new Used CD over and over and over again, late into the night. I make up for it by playing gothic metal at seven in the morning (Passive agression, bwahahah...).
You still have glass in your arm!? That's shocking. I hope you'll take care of it soon!
I would like to apologize, as I now realize that I did not handle some things as well as I should have. It makes me happy that we both want to move on and be friends again.
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